Monday, June 2, 2008
I just found out that I am suffering from
some sort of anger management shit.
Dear jackie told me this.
That I somehow changed alot
and that I am not how I used to be
I get super duper easily irritated nowadays.
And I get the feeling of hitting and screaming at
somebody pretty much all of the time.
I know I look like I am smiling all the time.
But hell.
Who knows but I may be smilling at you
but inside, I might be gorging out your eyeballs
Stabbing your guts
Stompping on your face.
Pulling that bitchy hair of yours.
And just dripping acid on to your face.
DAMN!
Feeling so so low now
i dont know why
maybe its because I havent got
enough sleep recently
or maybe because
well.
Nevermind.
I dont know what I am talking about now
but whats happening to my friends.
I just realize that there is no one I can really
approach to tell them how I feel about stuff
tell them about my troubles
tell them about my secrets
tell them about my likes and dislikes
tell them how much I really enjoy talking to them
no.
Its all gone.
All I talk about to "Friends" are just stuff that are
artificial?
I dont know.
Its just mostly about shit stuff which I dont
even know why I talk about it.
Sheesh.
Its 2.30am in the morning.
What the fuck am I doing to myself now.
2:28:00 AM,
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