OMG!! haix.. de camp ROX!! today was the second day and i regretted thinking that the camp was going to be a stupid waste of time.. hmm.. Yesterday.. pretty much everything was just about fun.. Pretty much laughed half of the day away.. but then at the end of the day as in like at night the last trainer LEROY omg.. i think i am like so going to remember him forever.. he err.. sort of like lectured us and seriously motivated us to really really want to stop all the nonsense that we have been doing and study.. and make sure that we will do well.. TODAY!! WOO!! started of like normal.. had super tons of fun but then when leroy came in again.. it was like torture.. he lectured us .. hmm.. no.. he scolded us in a way.. beecause he was more fierce today and made us realize that we were all hypocritical because we arent really who we were.. and sadly some of us absolutely have no idea who we really are because we always put on a mask which is not really us and act as if that is us in order to get attention, make people like us and stuff like that.. then he told us that sometimes even though we feel like shit and have no energy and confidence to move on or do something.. theres always a hero there to pull us up and make us continue.. and that hero.. is ourself.. the person inside ourself.. in a way, our trueself. That really explained alot because i realized that YA.. it is like super true.. Then we moved on to the next session which made us realize how important our parents are and how much they love us and how much they would give in order to keep us going.. Then we were told to close our eyes and imagine some stuff.. like how we treated our parents... how our parents treat us since we were young.. and stuff like that.. and at the end of the imagination thingy.. it ended of with our parents dieing.. AND LIKE HELL!! WTF!! I CRIED LIKE NUTS!! and when i opened my eyes i foudn out that i wasnt alone.. pretty much everyone in the lecture room was crying.. like wow.. 100 plus people were crying with me.. that just felt.. WOO HOO good~ After that i realize that i have wronged my parents and lots of stuff.. And even though i dont think shes going to read this.. MUM I AM SORRY~!
